There are a lot of things i want to say... but dunno where to start. Nowadays, seem like there are a lot of things happening around me, all things have changed. Family problem, friends problem and self problem. my mind cant stop thinking about my problems.

I made mistakes in my workplace and gt a firm scolded by my boss. At that point of time, i felt that i really useless, cant even do a simple thing better, thinking how can i do big things. That day really breakdown and cry after a firm scolding. Really want to find someone and talk.

Sometimes, i am not treated like an adult i am being treated like a kid. am i not that mature? Probably, i am not that mature, i find that my thinking are not mature enough.

Now, another thing. i dont know why the dream keep coming to me. Always the same person keep appearing to my dream, it makes me keep on think of him, kind of miss him. But i keep saying to myself what for think about him? he is not going to come to me. Even though, i hope he is mine but i dont think that is possible. What is past is already past. I keep thinking to myself what does this dreams suppose to mean? Or is it i think of him too much that's why i will dream of him? Sigh. so frustrating.

I really dont like the feeling of missing, kind of heartache. O Lord, this blog is all i want to say to you. Though you created me, you put me into this world. Pray that i will be a useful person for you, to do things that is glorifying you.

Pray in all situation that i will learn to pray and be dependence on You.
Pray that i will spend more time in reading Your Word.
Pray Lord that you will take away my misery, my guilt and my sadness.

Wondering how will my future be like? Cant be predicted. 

Monday, November 07, 2011
Up, up, and away!